"Sometimes my heart leaks tears like an old engine leaks oil until, eventually, I run dry and everything just seizes up." - Dion le Roux

Our emotions are like the threads that weave through the fabric of our existence. They colour our experiences, shape our perceptions, and sometimes weigh us down like a heavy burden.

Anyone prone to suffering from anxiety or depression will be able to relate to the experience of going about your day, navigating through the ups and downs, when suddenly, you feel it—the weight of emotion pressing down on you like a ton of bricks.

You try to shrug it off, but it clings to you like a stubborn shadow, refusing to let go. Each passing moment feels like another drop in the bucket until you eventually find yourself drowning in a sea of emotion.

It's as if your heart has sprung a leak, and no matter how hard you try to patch it up, the tears keep flowing.

Like an old engine leaking oil, our hearts can't help but release the pent-up sorrow that accumulates over time. We try to soldier on, pushing through the pain with a brave face, but inside, we're slowly running dry.

We are now in a dangerous place.

The exhaustion sets in as the days turn into weeks and the weeks into months. It's not just physical tiredness—it’s a bone-deep weariness that seeps into every fibre of our being.

We find ourselves going through the motions, but inside, we're numb. The spark that once ignited our spirit begins to flicker, threatening to go out altogether.

It's a silent struggle, invisible to the outside world. We may smile and nod when asked how we're doing, but inside, we scream for relief. We long for a reprieve from the constant barrage of emotions, a moment of peace amid the storm.

But as the days drag on, that peace feels further and further out of reach. We're trapped in a cycle of despair, in a maze of our own making. And just when we think we can't take it anymore, something inside us snaps.

It's as if the engine of our spirit has finally seized up, unable to withstand the pressure any longer. We find ourselves at a crossroads, unsure of which way to turn.

Do we keep pushing forward, hoping that things will get better somehow? Or do we throw in the towel, surrendering to the overwhelming tide of emotion?

So, what exactly is depression?

Well, it's not just feeling sad or down now and then. It's more like a constant cloud hanging over your head, making it hard to see the sunshine, even on the bright days.

Depression is widely recognised as a mood disorder. It affects how you think and feel and how well you can handle daily activities. And let me tell you, it's no walk in the park.

One of the tricky things about depression is that it can sneak up on you when you least expect it.

You might be going about your business, minding your own business, when suddenly, bam! It hits you like a ton of bricks. That's why it's essential to be aware of early warning signs so that you can take steps to manage them in time.

So, what are some of the critical warning signs of depression?

1. Feeling sad or hopeless most of the time.

2. Changes in sleep patterns. Maybe you're sleeping too much and still feeling exhausted or having trouble falling or staying asleep at night.

3. Some people with depression might lose their appetite and have trouble eating, while others might find themselves reaching for comfort food as a way to cope.

4. Energy levels: Depression can suck the energy right out of you, leaving you feeling tired and sluggish all the time.

But perhaps the most insidious warning sign of depression is the way it messes with your thoughts.

You might feel worthless or guilty for no apparent reason, constantly criticising yourself and dwelling on past mistakes. Depression can also make it hard to concentrate or make decisions, leaving you feeling overwhelmed and helpless.

So, what can you do if you notice any of these warning signs?

First and foremost, don't be afraid to seek help from a friend or a professional.  Remember, you're not alone, and there are people out there who want to help you through this.

And if you're worried about someone else who you suspect may be struggling with depression, try reaching out to them. Let them know you're there for them and offer to lend a listening ear or a shoulder. Sometimes, the simple fact of knowing that someone cares about you can make a big difference.

In the end, depression is a tough nut to crack, but it's not unbeatable.

With the proper support and resources, it's possible to manage depression and reclaim your life. So, don't be afraid to speak up and reach out. Remember, there's always hope, even in the darkest of times.

Until next time, may you find the strength to overcome your sorrow.

Dion le Roux